I saw New Moon last night and I loved it. First movie ever that made me hyperventilate. BUT there were just too many clips all over internet that, all in all, showed most of the film, which sucks, 'cuz it turns out you know most of the scenes and it just ruins the magic. Also some of my friends thought the special effects were bad. They kept comparing it to Harry Potter and how much effort they put in those movies... Dunno. I liked it, though. It ends with a cliffhanger, which shocked me. I mean, after 2 hours it still felt like it only begun, and then PUFF!, all black!
The wolves (werewolves, pardon) were so realistic.... It didn't even had to be shown in 3D to make you feel like you can touch them. Also, I like how Robert talks in this one. Lol, I know, but seriously. 'Cuz in Twilight he talked so weird, like you could barely hear him and like he was struggling to make a sound.
What I disliked were the wigs again. The wigs for Taylor and Kiowa were great, but for Nikki and Jackson horrible. Just too obvious. -.-" Also, I don't get why Jackson looked ridiculous again. Ok, I get that he has to look like he swallowed a broom stick, but I guess it's that stupid wig... Ah, whatever... (Don't get me wrong, after Taylor, Jackson is my 2nd fave actor from the saga, which is why I want him to look better, like the rest of the cast.)

As far as the soundtrack goes, I was very disappointed. It's not that I dislike the songs, though there are some that I do, but they just aren't that special, they don't click with me. Twilight OST on the other hand was amazing. The only song that I really like is Lykke Li's Possibility.

NM is one of those movies for which only 1 viewing isn't enough. I have to process it more thoroughly. x))
There were scenes that made my heart beat like crazy. Mostly the ones with Jacob. Made me remember how they were described in the book, with such intensity. And I like intense feelings. I kept wiggling in my chair.... *blush*

This was definitely sth I needed to keep my mind off a certain forbidden fruit I would like to sink my teeth in. Yeah, my life is jolly.

xoxo

P.S. Wish these two were together for real...

I feel like everything is coming to it's place. Like I'm slowly getting the thing's I want. Do you believe any of the things about the Law of attraction? Some thing about the Secret are confusing, but even if you put all that mambo-jumbo aside, it all comes down to wishing sth so bad it will come to you. Or someone... Machiavelli said that destiny controls half of our actions, and leaves the other half to us. And I do believe in that.

Long time ago, I was lonely. So I wished for a friend. It took a while, but I got my friend.
I wished for a better life, and I got it.
I wished to be a part of a group of certain people, and now I am.
And I'm happy.
I thank Whoever it is, wherever, for these blessings. For happiness.
I've been wishing for a certain boy, too. And I feel like, slowly, he's coming to me.
Maybe these little things are coincidences, or maybe Destiny taking care of it's half... I would like to believe so.

So, yeah, I'm content... Happy... Laughing and giggling all the time. Acting like a teenager. Living my life, finally, like I was suppose to.
Take care, xoxo

P.S. I'm also enjoying the fact that it's Autumn. The fog. God, I love the fog. It makes the world so magical, mysterious.... And the cold...

The Part of You That No One Sees is Afraid

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

You Are a Lynx

You are a quiet observer of the world around you. Your wisdom comes from listening carefully. You've always been extra sensitive and aware. And it's made it difficult for you to fit in. You see past people's outward personas. You are able to penetrate a stranger's soul. What you've learned about people is both beautiful and ugly. And you keep these secrets to yourself.

It's true, though...

Found some cute quizzes... Help yourselves...

On April 2nd I was on a Nightwish concert. And it was spectacular. I always had the best words for Anette, and after this, I think I totally ADORE the woman. And Marco and Tuomas... Everyone.... They're the best.
I was in the 4th row in front of Tuomas... And felt like crying. 'Cuz him and my dad (R.I.P.)... they're identical... Their faces, smiles, even characters... (No, I didn't meet Tuomas, but every fan knows these things, right?) Even their names are similiar (practicaly the same, just in diferent languages).

That night I met a guy...
We started chatting via MSN two nights later 'cuz he said he'd sent me his videos and photos from the concert (has a great camera). We've noticed tha we are, in many things, identical. So much in comon, that it was scary.
We were constatly saying stuff like "No way! You too?" and "OMG, marry me!"... LOL
And we talked like that for a few days and when we met... it went without saying that we were together, a couple.
BIG MISTAKE
Why?
'Cuz we didn't know each other well enough. I mean, he was head-over-heals for me AND still is! But to me... When all the excitement dissapeared I was left blank... Emotionless? I wish!
He started to bug me, couldn't be a minute in a day without some sort of communication going on.
He suffacated me. 12 days later we were thru.
BUT we're still friends and stuff, though even know he can be a pain in the neck, but it's easier to get rid of him now. The tragedy of it all is that he loves so bad... He'd jump infront of  a train or sth to save me or whatever.
And I even had to play the worst card to cut him off, went so low, and yet he didn't mind any of that. He's still my "angel guardian". Geez.... -.-"

Enough about that.
My 20th birthday is coming up... OLD! =/
And both on my and my mom's b-day I have exams. Sucks. But there's gonna be a cool bbq next weekend, so we're praying to the heavens to show us some mercyfull sun that day!

Oh, I was also on Beyonces concert a week ago. She's really awesome. I think I prefer her live, her songs, I mean. It sounds better and more interesting. It was lovely. She was so grateful to us and said she'll come back. And I'm gonna go again. :D

Take care!
Kissu~

Somewhere around last week, I talked to my friend Chester and he was happy to inform me that he’ll be going to a concert next week. I was happy for him, but then it hit me! He was going to see The Rasmus! Oh, sweety, not without me you’re not! I was panicking that they already sold all the tickets. But there were plenty left. And so the next day I got up earlier and bought my ticket. *happy*
Ches and I are, as we call ourselves, concert buddies, so going to concerts together turned pretty much into a tradition. Also, when I first heard that they're coming to my town I was really happy, but convinced that noone likes them enough to go to their show. So I asked discretely who wants to go thru Facebook, and since there was no response, I decided not to go, 'cuz I didn't wanna go alone. But I guess I was destined to go, afterall.
And I'm so glad I went!
Before the concert I met one of his (manymanymany) friends. An awesome girl! We talked, joked to kill some time.
And then 8 o'clock came and they let us in.
We waited for an hour, but the guys sure made up for the wait!

They played, pretty much, all their best stuff. I tried to sing-a-long as much as my knowledge of their lyrics had allowed it. Lauri kept messing around with us- coming closer and moving back, playing with his hands- I was standing in like 4th row, and was close enough to actually touch his hand, which I managed. YAY! XD
There were mostly girls there, not many people, also mostly kids... But hey, we all start with this or that band, right?
I must say that Lauri is adorable... Seriously. I had no idea he was so cute... Like a puppy... xD
And he kept talking with us. Actually, to us.
They dedicated Justify to their croatian fan, he gave them a lil' tour of the city, and such. That was really nice of them. They're such sweet guys. :)
All in all, a kick-ass concert! I hope they left good enough impression on people so that more people come next time.
In case you wanna see a clip from the concert, GO HERE.

I couldn't take a decent picture; this is the best I could do:

Also, just wanted to say that I did like them always. I first heard of The Rasmus when they had singles like First day of my life, In the shadows... But then they disappeared from these areas, from TV... And PUFF! All of a sudden I'm 2 albums behind! I was listening those 2 albums before the concert, but they "sit" well only after the concert. I just didn't realize how good some of the songs were...
But Not like the other girls is still my NO.1.... <3

Take care, folks!

Hope this Friday 13th isn't bringing bad stuff.

A. People who have been tagged must, if they choose to participate, write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question.
Please italicize the new question if you do that.


01. What are your nicknames?
Iris, Vivian, Joanna... But I prefer Iris (I took it because of the song "Iris" by Goo Goo Dolls)

02. How does your hair look like currently?
Well I cut it 2 weeks ago, so it's a lot lighter and a lil' wavey.

03. What's new in your life right now?
Right now? Maybe the Twilight opssesion I fought against so long, but gave in eventually...

04. How many colours are you wearing now?
Just grey...

05. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Introvert, definently. I'd survive if I was the only human in the world....

06. What was the last book you read?
New Moon...

07. Do you nap a lot?
No, not really... But I do like to sleep long...

08. If you had to have a one night stand with someone famous, who would you like it to be?
Hmm... Oh, the hell, GACKT! XD

09. Is there anything that has made you happy these days?
No....

10. What's your current obsession?
Twilight. :S

11. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
About 30-40 minutes...

12. What websites do you visit daily?
Last.fm, DeviantArt, my Yahoo page, Facebook...

13. Do you write fic? What was the last fic you wrote?
Nope...

14. What's the last thing you laughed about?
To last night's re-run of Star Trek: DS9. When that Bethazoid lady came to the station and made everyone fall in love with everyone... It was hillarious. xD

15. What's the last song that got stuck in your head?
Supermassive Black Hole by Muse.

16. What's the last movie you saw?
Corpse bride. LOVE it!!

17. Would you enter a relationship with your ideal partner, even if you knew he/she was seriously involved with/married to someone else and would never leave them?
No. I have better things to do in life then being no. 2....

18. What is your least favourite thing to do that you did today?
Got up today 2 hours earlier then I did for the past 2 weeks... :S Tomorrow will be even worst...

I'm tagging:

marlonob, midwintermagic, & anne1392

Have fun!!

This year I wanna have a gothic kind of Xmas and I'll do my best to make it that way.
I'll start with watching Kagen no Tsuki, after that Nightmare b4 Xmas and Corpse bride, followed by the Black Symphony and conclude it with (not-gothic-at-all) Twilight. It premiers tomorrow, on Xmas, here where I live.
Last year I was wearing bright colors at this time- not this year.
Also, no happy xmas songs. No. Just Gackt and Luna Sea. Their saddest songs.
Yes. I'm gonna make myself a gothic Xmas. =] And to me it'll be merry.

Yesterday the Silent Force's magazine came. There's a Sharon's poster. Haven't figured out where to put it yet.

I've no frackin' idea where I'll spend the New Year.

Merry Xmas everyone! And have a rockin' New Year!

~Within Temptation: Gothic Christmas~

We're gonna have a gothic Christmas

That is what we'll do

We're gonna have a gothic Christmas

Hope you'll have one too

 

Santa's going to wear a black dress

Just for me and you

Santa's going to grunt in Latin

And slay a dragon or two

 

Rudolph, he will change his name

'cause Rudolph just sounds really lame

Now we'll call him Ragnagord

The evil reindeer overlord

 

His nose it shall be red no more

It will be blackened to the core

His eyes will glow an evil glow

To guide the chariot through the snow

 

We want to wish you a gothic Christmas

 

We're gonna have a gothic Christmas

That is what we'll do

We're gonna have a gothic Christmas

Hope you'll have one too

 

We want to wish you a gothic Christmas

Hope you'll have a gothic Christmas too

Just finished watching Xmen 3... Love that triology...

College life is a good thing for me. If only I weren't so lazy to do my homeworks on time...
You know what sucks though?
Some people. Certain girls who try to be some tough-shots or wtv... And those few great guys who are dumb enough to hang with them... At first I wanted to be friends with them. Now I don't care. It's healthier that way.
The other sucky thing is, that in these 2,5 months I managed to have 3 crushes, the last one being the strongest-- all 3 of the guys- taken! i should start a club for them...
There was a party on Thursday... There was a guy... Not taken for a change... Friend might introduce us... Hes cute and all, nice guy... Please keep your fingers crossed.
I really need a guy right now...
On that party I got slightly drunk. I was rather dizzy. And silly. Quite frankly, I don't think of that dizziness as fun. It's irritating. And I get silly and crazy if I'm in a good company and if the mood is good. And it usually is, so I don't see the need for getting drunk. I just wish others would see it that way.

For the past two weeks, that "butterfly" friend was absent. And the other girl and I got so close that people started asking us if we were friends since before. I love her. She rocks! Finally that one friend I've been wanting since the stinky elementary school!!


P.S. All I want for this Xmas... are some PJ's and a boyfriend. It's pathetic, really...

Well, classes on my college started 3 weeks ago.
I've met tons of people, and became friends with two great girls. Sth tells me that I won't get burned by them, sth like a 6th sense is telling me that. You can see in their eyes their decent.
One of them is like a sensitive lil' flower- I always think of freesias when I see her. She's very sweet and kind.
The other one is funny and quirky and likes to drink. Which is no good, but she can't help it. She's one of those people who are silly when drunk.
It's fun being around them. Their normal people and I feel relaxed when I'm with them. It's so natural. I guess The Secret does work. ;)
So life is good now. I feel like I got out of hell and entered Paradise. Ok, college won't be all peachy, I know, but as long as the people are good, and you have great friends- everything else is a bit easier. I know it. I experienced the opposite.

Today I feel bad cuz my dog's been puking since 7am. I haven't slept properly, I'm tired and hungry and cranky... :P
But, I know I'll be OK tomorrow. :)

Take care!

I just read latest chapter of Nana (first 35 pages, courtesy of Celestial Delinquent and Onemanga).
And I'm sad... and really mad @ Ai. WHY?!?!?!?!?!
Oh, man... This story is really addictive.

Next Monday classes at my college will start. I'm pretty excited. The place is great; it's surrounded by nature, the 'classrooms' are beautiful... We had a freshmens meeting this Monday just to get some clue of how things work here. The college is still rather young, plus they crave for high quality in all the aspects, so the atmosphere there is just great! I'm really excited. :)

But that happiness was ruined by Ai... grrrr..... :-/
Plus, for the last two weeks I had to do everything with my left hand, 'cuz I hurt my right hand. It's a torture! It's getting better, but I can't really use it yet.

I got OLIVIA's new mini-album, Trinka-trinka. It's pretty good. i think it'll take some getting used to, 'cuz I really like that dark side of her.

That's all from me, take care!

I've been watching NANA anime...
Only 3 episodes to go...
It makes me sad...
How Ai ruined the story...
But she is just being realistic...
Nana might be a legendary story one day, almost epical, but it's no fairy tale...

These lazy summer days, I've been spending at my grandparents' house and at home.
I've been waiting for a good friend to come back from the sea side so we can met. And she's back, and we'll meet in few days.
I'm satisfied. Not sad. Not depressed. Ok, except when I watch Nana, but that's not the point.
I'm just happy.
Also looking forward to my new life. College life.
But until then, I'm pritty happy with being trapped in NANA world.

I'm so happy right now... :D I just update my computer from SP 1 to SP 3, eventhough my computer guy told me not to. He thought I don't need it or sth, but I did. And now I'm happy, cuz I could finally make some updates I've always wanted (like the latest version of Windows Live Messenger). So I'm writting this from the Windows Live Writer and me likes it mucho! XD

Yeah, I've lost my mind... And I don't have much time...

But to put a long story short, in these past 5 months (since my last entry), wow, it's been that long, I've managed to graduate, too have fun on my prom night and to get into the college I, more or less, wanted. The campus is beautiful and I'm happy I'll be going there. All this took a lot of energy from me and a loot of time, so my computer days were cut short, but now I'm back, so I hope I'll have more will to write here.

Till next time, my non-readers, toodles! :D

 

Oh, where do I start?
Well, I joined The Silent Force, Within Temptation's official fan club. They played at Ahoy last Friday- the recorded the concert and will release a DVD soon. Can't wait! Judging by the youtube clips it was spectacular... <3333
Speaking about last Friday, sth interesting happened to me that day.
I went on-line in the evening to check my mail and there was only one mail...
Last month I had left a msg on Viktor Kee's guestbook and I got his response. I'm still *starstruck*

This is it:


That's all in the news for now. Tnx for reading! LOL
Toodles! *waves*

Sharon rules...
So, this Monday, 1 month b4 the V-day, Within Temptation played in my town...
And... it... was... PERFECT!
Sharon was suprised by the noise we made, how we screamed our poor lil' lungs out... How HAPPY we were to see them, to hear them...
After Tarja leaving the world of metal music, I concider Sharon to be the Queen of all metal bands with leading ladies, if you get me.
She's a wonderful and warm and friendly person and her voice is stunning... She sounds, they sound, so much better live, which you can't really say for all the bands...
I was, turns out, lucky enough to be in the front road right in front of Ruud... And I must say that being on the left side is very good, cuz on the last concert I was on, I was on the left as well, and it made me realize how a certain guitarist is, well, honestly- hot...  [Fieldy from KoRn...]
Same goes for Ruud. Although he had sth else... There is sth... magical about him... He swept me off my feet...
They played my NO.1- The Cross. On that one and Angels I sang as loud as I could and I had no idea I had that kind of energy in me. I guess concerts have that effect on me... ^__^
At one moment, while she was singing and came to "our" side, I did sth with my hands, reaching towards Sharon and she saw it and she smiled at me...
It was amazing...
Aftterwards they gave out autograms and why I didn't get one, is a long, stupid story.

She also promised they'll be back.
I'll be there and I'll be ready... ;)=

...  do you remember the day we met?

I watched both NANA movies. I liked the first one better. Second one was just too depressing and too many different actors playing old characters...
NANA moved me... Made some things even more clear. Made me realize sth... Changed a part of me...

I'm ok like this...The only human being that I really wanted to see I saw yesterday. And now I'm ok. Sure I may be in that loner mood again, when I don't really need anyone, but... Why should I bother forcing myself to hang out with people I don't give a damn about... and only cuz they are the few "friends" I have.
I thought I loved her. And maybe I even did. It was the same feeling of love like Nana's felt for one another. But i don't see the point in loving someone who doesn't feel the same for you. I never did. But I couldn't help feeling the way I did. It was a waste of time and precious nerves. I don't wanna make a fool of myself anymore. No use.
Ne, Nana... Arigato.

I don't concider it friendship if if you're afraid to call your "friend" thinking you might be disturbing them, or that they're too busy for you. A real friend always has the time for you. Right?

Ne, Nana...
You also thought me how complex love is. It isn't just black and white. No, definently not...

All in all, NANA made me realize that I'm finally, truly ready to... let go.

SAYONARA~

And another year is behind us, and a new one waiting for us... To make it better or worse then the one before...
I spend the New year's eve at a friends house. It was awesome. Just us 4 girls having a blast. The other friend and myself spend the night and took a bus home in the morning. It was a nice way to say welcome to the new year, 2008...
8 is "my" number. I've been loving it since 1998. All tnx to a soccer player, lol. Oh, well, it was the only year when I was a soccer fan.
But the number stuck with me... This year in general is very symbolic to me, so I'm hoping all that will turn out fine; that it's good symbolics... *fingers crossed*

Musically, the year started with some turbo folk which was just for the laugh, and with some metal... It continued with Gackt ans these days, with Gackt, I've been listening to some good old nu metal/heavy rock... Bands like Staind, Nickleback, Godsmack... But Godsmack is extra special to me.
There were 3 songs that made me fall in love with that "heavier" music-- One step closer by LP, Broken home by Papa Roach and Awake by Godsmack... That song and LP's & PR's demo albums will stay special to me forever....

That's all from me for now... Toodles!